Legend of the Wizard

In my previous life I was just a normal person. I was living an average life and getting by just fine. I had practiced an awareness of my emotions. By watching my emotions come and go, I became more aware of my inner state. I was always thinking about the future, reaching out for the next thing that would make me feel successful. As soon as I had it in my hands it felt as if it was sand slipping through my fingers, and I felt empty and immediately thought of the next thing that may bring it back. I was always chasing success and if I was moving too slow I would shame myself for being unmotivated and lazy. Problems would arise in my life and I would blame others. “It’s their fault I’m not where I want to be in life,” the voice in my head would say. When I made mistakes I would be overly judgemental and feel guilty that I have not reached the level of success I desired. 

Let me tell you, it was a rollercoaster of emotions. Sometimes I was on top of the world and sometimes I was living in hell. When something good happened to me I felt happy and confident and energized, but something could happen to me the next day, and I felt sad and insecure. Just like success, I was chasing happiness as well. “When I have them both, my life will be complete and I will feel fulfilled,” I thought to myself constantly. I was so logical when planning every move in efforts to control my life. The more control I had the more I was afraid of giving up that control. If I wasn’t in control that means someone else will make me fail. I was running from the fear of failure. I desired anything that resembled success and just wanted to live my dreams of a happy life. The more I judged others and myself, the more insecure I became. “Why is this happening to me?”  I asked myself almost weekly. I would bring up painful memories of things that happened to me and tell myself the story again that made me suffer through the experience once more. I was stuck living in the past or the future. I was consistently putting massive amounts of energy into my life but I still felt like I wasn’t where I wanted to be. I was experiencing so much resistance and life felt hard. 

I was searching for something to improve my wellbeing so I started meditating. I became very good at meditating and could do it anywhere. I would go on walks or runs in the forest and feel so deeply connected to my energy. I remember meditating on a walk once and the energy within me resonated at my core. I felt beyond happy and could feel the energy pulsating at my core and it felt so familiar. It felt more like me, more than anything else. It felt like I should investigate what I was feeling but I was afraid of the unknown and what I may discover, so I snapped out of my meditation and started walking faster thinking about what I had to do when I got back home. 

A few days went by and I found myself feeling a little lost, overwhelmed and empty. I was stuck in my head surrounded by negative thoughts. One thought led to another and I started telling myself the same old story. I was feeling depressed and needed to pick myself back up. I took off for a walk in the forest to get some air and clear my head.

While walking along a path in the forest I reminded myself of everything I am grateful for. I fell in love with everything at this very moment. I was no longer in my head and I was simply just being with no thought at all. I was in a prolonged state of complete silence and the feeling was beyond conception of the mind. I felt the most loving energy flow into me. It felt as if my chest opened up and my heart filled with this loving energy that is beyond words. 

I closed my eyes and just stood there so I could take in this feeling to its fullest. I could feel the energy all around me and flow within my body. I could see a portal in my mind. It was right in front of me. It was the brightest light I had ever seen coming right out of the portal. A feeling took over my entire body as if this light was familiar and calling me to it. I had two options: I could continue living how I had been living for the past 28 years, or I could discover a new life on the other side of this portal. I took a leap of faith and entered. 

The other side of the portal was a completely different world. It was as if I was in another dimension. The forest looked so vivid. Everything was illuminated and looked as if it were glowing. The colours were magical and I was stunned in awe of how beautiful everything looked. The forest was alive and I could see the flow of energy in everything and saw how everything was vibrating in harmony. I felt a deep connection with everything I was looking at. I didn’t even need to see it, I could feel it. I watched the trees breathe and followed the flow of energy from the tip of the leaves all the way through my nose. I could feel the energy fill my body. I was awakened to my true nature. 

I saw a path in front of me and continued my journey in this mystical world. I got to know myself on my journey. I now realize why I had felt like there were two parts of me. One that was trying to conform to society and people telling me to be normal. The other part just wanted to be authentic. I ignored others and listened to my heart. I broke free from the status quo in my old world and blazed my own trail in this new world in search of truth. Lonely nights helped me become familiar with my authentic self. The darkest parts of this world were the most difficult to see my way, and I felt lost and uncertain that I was still on the path. 

At those times, my beliefs and values gave me inner guidance that kept me on my path. I embraced my personal development in search of my true identity. I became fearless and authentic. I believe in challenging the status quo. I believe in taking risks, being optimistic, and lifelong learning. I believe it is in our very nature to create. I believe we are all unique and special in our own ways. I believe all have curiosity for discovering ourselves. I believe we are all seeking the truth. I believe we should follow our hearts and do what we love because that will make us happy. I believe we should discover our true potential by continuing to evolve. I believe we can change our world.

I continued to discover this mystical world and with excitement put into each step for the unknown that awaits ahead of me. I have never been one to believe blindly. I am objective and investigate everything which has sharpened my discernment. My unbiased understanding gives me the confidence to be decisive when making decisions along the way. My thirst for knowledge helped me find the purest water where I absorbed the wisdom. I learned the truths of this world which helped me master the four elements: earth, fire, water, and air. My ambition for truth and freedom pushed me through challenging stages of my journey that evolved me spiritually. The more I evolved spiritually, the more I mastered my mind. 

Of all the challenges I faced along my journey, nothing compared to what I was about to encounter. As I looked back the path vanished into darkness. In front of me there was only darkness. My body felt cold. This was the abyss. I came face to face with death. I surrendered to it and was able to see my body from above it. I watched my body lay lifeless on the ground. At that moment I realized who I really am. I felt total liberation and was finally at peace. The brightness illuminated the darkness. It was the same bright light I had seen in the portal. The intensity was indescribable because it was beyond anything the mind is capable of knowing and words don’t exist to describe the feelings I felt. It was a love beyond love that was blissful. I was surrounded by this source of light and love. No, I was the source of light and love.

I channeled my energy back into my body. I was reborn. I realized I am the love beyond love that is so blissful. Every cell in my body felt brand new and upgraded. I felt like a completely different person in this physical form. My mind evolved. It was so peaceful, and I was simply just being. My mind, body, and energy were in harmony and I was living every moment to its fullest.

I continued to master my energy. I became very wise by consciously being aware of the energy within me and around me that revealed the greatest secrets of this dimension. I became infinitely powerful when I learned how to put my intention into my energy. I used my energy to influence my body and my surroundings and created the life I desired. I became supernatural when I learned energy manipulations such as telekinesis, telepathy, clairvoyance and empathy. I became a healer and could heal myself and others with my love. I became fearlessly authentic and others could feel my energy. I became a guide and helped others evolve and create the life of their dreams.

I became the wizard.